Some days I struggle with being happy. I haven't ever been diagnosed with depression, but sometimes I wonder. I always pull myself out of slumps by counting my blessings and finding joy in the little things.
My mom always says that happiness is a choice. You can choose to be happy or you can choose to let things make you sad.
Now I don't consider myself a "Sad" person. I always prefer to laugh when I am stressed rather than cry. Although sometimes a good cry can do wonders it is certainly not going to solve any problems. Normal problems are solved by finding a solution. Some solutions are just out of reach and so you have to work to bridge the gap.
That is the hard part. "Bridging the gap" usually is where the sadness comes in. Especially when it is a long "bridge." I ususally just decide that if there is nothing I can do about the situation right then and there then there is no sense in worrying about it. I get a sort of tunnel vision about my problems and let them go for a while until there IS something i can do about it.
This has worked for me up until yesterday...
For FHE we read the First Presidency Message by Pres Utchdorf. In it was a quote by Pres David O. McKay that said, "Some of us look forward to a time in the future—salvation and exaltation in the world to come—but today is part of eternity"
CRAP...
Some of my problems are really small. Some are not.
It seems that some of my bridges are too long. I guess I take this to mean that I shouldn't always count on a long bridge. Yeah I will get there someday long into the future but I really need to work harder at being happier NOW. Even when it is sometimes really hard to be happy.
I need to live more for today and decide that I will be happy no matter what. I deserve to be happy, not someday in the future, but TODAY!
I just have to choose to be.
